This brings me to the next step I must admit my process started and stopped a few times, at this point. I did not want to relive the memories of what I went through as a child or young adult. Without that walk down memory lane and journaling exactly how I felt at given moments I would not have been able to release it the way I needed to. Almost a year before going through this process, a dear friend of mine tried to take me through this process and it backfired on him. He got to a point that he could not handle it. I prided myself in his defeat. I thought to myself that will teach him to fool with me. What I did not realize was this was God’s first attempt at taking me through this process but again I had not realized that I was the problem. After going through this process with God, I am thankful that my friend was willing to try to walk me through this. Even as I write this book, I realize that I need to go back to him and ask for his forgiveness. I was not rude to him at all but I was not open to what he was trying to walk out because God had put it on his heart.
There will be a time of brokenness as you deal with the emotions that stem from you remembering each piece part. However, this time of brokenness is needed. In order for truly wholeness to come sometimes you have be fall on the rock Christ Jesus and let him break up the fallow ground.
That is when I realized that this process does not end. It is ever evolving if you will. As new things surface you deal with them but the woman with the issue of blood had to say aloud what had happened to her. She had to tell the truth. She had to risk people smirking and laughing at her. She had to risk being scorned or ridiculed. The words of her story had to be told by her and relived so others would find the same path to healing. As she spoke the words, I believe that she realized it was over. She was not the same woman she was when she approached Jesus. This was her painful story. She experienced it. God needed her testimony. That seems strange to say God needed her testimony but it is true. He needed the people to hear her speak about her life. Those that knew her heard and could bare witness to her story. No one can tell your story like you.
When she finished, Jesus affirmed it all. He said because of your faith be made whole. He also, told her to walk in peace and be whole from her plague. You will start to feel different; God himself will affirm changes in you.
Once this process, is in progress you will see that it is a never-ending process. You will uncover things at each level that you will need to be set free from. The greatest thing is that you will be able to tell others what you have gone through and how god has changed you. I now give true hope to others because I understand this process. I have been made whole and want to take all those in need of the same healing along with me.
Life will bring great trials and tribulations. People will hurt you. You may have to suffer some things, but I have found that this process is a sure one to help me through every situation. God is always there to remove the scars, take away the pain and make me completely whole again.
You are Bound No More.
Pastor Linda Hillman
(c) 2015 Living Above Hurt Ministries
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