My phone rang and it was Stephanie. She was calling to encourage me and being the woman of God that she is, she helped me by giving me the portion that I lacked as a loan. Tears flooded my eyes and rolled down my checks because iI get had the money that I needed. So i put her on hold and called Priceline back but I couldn't get through. I know now that my trip number had been reported as a no show so it was not showing in the automated system. At that time, I was frustrated. So I got on my computer went to their site and opened up a live chat session. During that chat session they gave me a number to call in and speak to a person.
Talking to the Representative at priceline and going through what I had gone through just a few hours earlier, he comes back and says the price of the ticket has raised to 518.30. However, with I knew that would take all that I had but I could pay that amount. We started the process and as he began to take my information, he started calling my name and aksing me if I was there. I kept saying I am here and then he disconnected the phone. I told stephanie that I was having trouble getting through. So she said just take my information and put the money in your paypal. Then handle your business and let me know what happened. I agreed.
I then called back into Priceline and get another representative. She takes me through the same process as the others but then she says I need to call China Southern to get an authorization for you to get on the flight. I said okay. She placed me on hold and after a while comes back to say that she was unable to get China Southern on the line beciase their office has already closed. I asked her to check to see if the others had already gotten an authorization. She says she does not see it in the notes. Now you have to know that all these calls happened within 4-5 hours. She tells me that I have to call back in the AM because there is nothing that she can do. She verifies that the price is still 518.30, however, she says again that they can not guarantee the price and it may go or even go down by the morning. Frustrated and helpless, I hang up the phone. I sigh deeply. I need to be distracted. So I start working on my publishing projects.
As I worked on my publishing projects, My thoughts were going all ver the place, I remembered how God had rebuked me for thinking that this was not suppose to happen, that maybe he really did not make this happen for me. A peace fell upon me and my mind quieted, I heard God say "Trust Me." I admit trusting is a hard pill for this girl to swallow. The unknow was facing me but I had to choose to trust God. I could hear my voice from a few nights before telling rein and Stephanie, "Either we trust God or we dont." Now I had to live those words. I was able to focus on my projects. I got engrossed in reading emails and making phone calls and then my phone rang again.
It was Stephanie calling back to see what happened. So as I explain to her what happened and how I am going to get a ticket for Thrusday's flight no matter what and Stephanie stopped me and said, "Listen to me, you got to sit still and hear what God is saying in this situation. Right now you cant hear God because you are too emotional." It was like a slp in the face. it got my attention. I remember taking offense a bit but I listened to what she was saying. The last thing I wanted was to miss God.
As I listened to Stephanie, and even though I did not want to hear what she was saying, she was right. I also knew that I could not completely hear God in this situation if I did not journal. Most times the healing from my brokeness comes from journaling and somehow God takes over and begins to speak through me. However, I knew that if I began to journal in the state of mind that I was in it would turn into a pity party. Like Stephanie Said I had to be still and rest. No plotting, no scheming and no manipulation. Just pure rest.
I had to release my fears, and grab ahold of my faith. I was running scared right now and God could not operate in my life like he needed. Stephanie said let's pray. Her pray was not the usual God work a miracles and make it happen but it was a simple prayer, "Lord have your way." In her prayer she said that when I called in the morning that if it was meant for me to go, the price would be the original price quoted or less. If it was not meant for me to go it would be more. I remember holding my breath and refusing to thik in that moment. I rebuked any negative thoughts. and simply said "Have your way Lord."
I remember being a little worried, but I heard the words again, Either we trust God or we dont. We chatted a few minutes more and hung up the phone. I decided not to take anymore calls or talk to anyone else that night. I would shut down from working and rest like Stephanie had said. I didnt want any other opinions to flood my mind. I just wanted to know now what God would say and I would not find that out until the morning.
As I got ready for bed, I heard God say, "Trust Me." I whispered Lord I believe but help my unbelief. I went to bed.
More to come tomorrow...
You are Bound No More.
Pastor Linda Hillman
(c) 2015 LAH Ministries International
Booklindahillman@gmail.com
Get Your Copy Now
Will You Be Made Whole
In The Meantime
Talking to the Representative at priceline and going through what I had gone through just a few hours earlier, he comes back and says the price of the ticket has raised to 518.30. However, with I knew that would take all that I had but I could pay that amount. We started the process and as he began to take my information, he started calling my name and aksing me if I was there. I kept saying I am here and then he disconnected the phone. I told stephanie that I was having trouble getting through. So she said just take my information and put the money in your paypal. Then handle your business and let me know what happened. I agreed.
I then called back into Priceline and get another representative. She takes me through the same process as the others but then she says I need to call China Southern to get an authorization for you to get on the flight. I said okay. She placed me on hold and after a while comes back to say that she was unable to get China Southern on the line beciase their office has already closed. I asked her to check to see if the others had already gotten an authorization. She says she does not see it in the notes. Now you have to know that all these calls happened within 4-5 hours. She tells me that I have to call back in the AM because there is nothing that she can do. She verifies that the price is still 518.30, however, she says again that they can not guarantee the price and it may go or even go down by the morning. Frustrated and helpless, I hang up the phone. I sigh deeply. I need to be distracted. So I start working on my publishing projects.
As I worked on my publishing projects, My thoughts were going all ver the place, I remembered how God had rebuked me for thinking that this was not suppose to happen, that maybe he really did not make this happen for me. A peace fell upon me and my mind quieted, I heard God say "Trust Me." I admit trusting is a hard pill for this girl to swallow. The unknow was facing me but I had to choose to trust God. I could hear my voice from a few nights before telling rein and Stephanie, "Either we trust God or we dont." Now I had to live those words. I was able to focus on my projects. I got engrossed in reading emails and making phone calls and then my phone rang again.
It was Stephanie calling back to see what happened. So as I explain to her what happened and how I am going to get a ticket for Thrusday's flight no matter what and Stephanie stopped me and said, "Listen to me, you got to sit still and hear what God is saying in this situation. Right now you cant hear God because you are too emotional." It was like a slp in the face. it got my attention. I remember taking offense a bit but I listened to what she was saying. The last thing I wanted was to miss God.
As I listened to Stephanie, and even though I did not want to hear what she was saying, she was right. I also knew that I could not completely hear God in this situation if I did not journal. Most times the healing from my brokeness comes from journaling and somehow God takes over and begins to speak through me. However, I knew that if I began to journal in the state of mind that I was in it would turn into a pity party. Like Stephanie Said I had to be still and rest. No plotting, no scheming and no manipulation. Just pure rest.
I had to release my fears, and grab ahold of my faith. I was running scared right now and God could not operate in my life like he needed. Stephanie said let's pray. Her pray was not the usual God work a miracles and make it happen but it was a simple prayer, "Lord have your way." In her prayer she said that when I called in the morning that if it was meant for me to go, the price would be the original price quoted or less. If it was not meant for me to go it would be more. I remember holding my breath and refusing to thik in that moment. I rebuked any negative thoughts. and simply said "Have your way Lord."
I remember being a little worried, but I heard the words again, Either we trust God or we dont. We chatted a few minutes more and hung up the phone. I decided not to take anymore calls or talk to anyone else that night. I would shut down from working and rest like Stephanie had said. I didnt want any other opinions to flood my mind. I just wanted to know now what God would say and I would not find that out until the morning.
As I got ready for bed, I heard God say, "Trust Me." I whispered Lord I believe but help my unbelief. I went to bed.
More to come tomorrow...
You are Bound No More.
Pastor Linda Hillman
(c) 2015 LAH Ministries International
Booklindahillman@gmail.com
Get Your Copy Now
Will You Be Made Whole
In The Meantime
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