Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To be Learned! Part 7

I got up on Saturday, Nick the travel agent called me. Now I should tell you that up to this point I had been avoiding talking to Nick. So when he called this time I answered. the price was still the same it was 939 and I said well I still don't have enough money, but I will try to work something out. He said he would call back around 11AM to check on my status. 

Now at this time I had not called anyone expect those that knew I had missed the flight the second time. So I called my Mother. I needed her to give me some tough love and wisdom. What my mom did for me in that call was priceless. She did not try to tell me anything but the truth. She said that I should repent to God for sabotaging his plan with my fear. I was like NO, I did not do that. She said, "Linda think about it. God said he was going to do some great things in and through you and because of your issues with what people have said in the past about you, somehow, you let their lies derail God's truth. You let your insecurities undermine what God said. That does not change what god said about you what he is going to do. I know and you know that you should be there. NO are no excuses. You choose this, maybe not consciously, but subconsciously you did. I mean come on, YOU don't do stuff like this, but you did it twice. YOU not anyone else. You can't blame anyone else for this but you. You got in your own way. So repent to God."

I mean my mother let me have it. She did not say if god would move a mountain to let me go. She did not make any promises, but she knew that at the end of the day, I had to be a clean vessel because God has called me to do great things in His kingdom and I can't be tainted when I do them. When I got off the phone with her I was ready to do the work needed to seek forgiveness and to really let go of whatever anger was building in my heart. Once again I heard my friend's words, in essence to examine my heart. I understood, this was just a portion of the lesson God was going to teach me through this whole ordeal and I had to get it right. 

I once again knelt by my bedside and I asked God not what to do, or would he make a way once again. I, now humbled myself before him and repented. I asked god to forgive me for blaming him, for blaming Jessica and trying to hide my anger, I asked him to forgive me for leaving my passport not just once but twice, for squandering his blessings and thinking I deserved his favor after I had messed it up.  Any thing and everything that came to my mind at that moment I repented for. I had to even ask God to forgive me for letting my mind go to suicidual thoughts. For once again trying to control a situaion by trying to advert his plan because it was hard. I asked him to forgive me for sabotaging his plan even though I did it unaware.

So let me say this, because as I write this now looking back on this situation, I beleive many of us do this. We want so badly to be who God says that we are that we sometimes unaware will allow out habits and hangups to cause us to make decisions that we cant explain in that moment but hindsight is 20/20. While this was going on, I would never had said I would sabotage anything God wanted me to but when my mother said it. It rang true within me. It hurt but I knew I had some messed up stinking thinking that hindered me from giving god my best and doing what he wanted me to do. ask yourself, Do I believe God or do i believe the lies of the enemy? Be honest with yourself. Do you think people areafter you because of your past situations. Do you think you will fail because someone told you you would. We sometimes hear things so much that even though we dont want to believe it, we begin to tell ourselves these lies and accept them as truth. But God is truth and every other man/woman is a lie including you when it comes to god's plan for youe life. Believe God. 

Okay now back to my story, LOL. I just had to take a moment to tell ya... what I felt God wanted me to say right there.

So I repented for everything. Whin I got up. there was silence. Now I truly rested. This was a depression rest, or a pity rest but I really rested. I did not want to do work, I did not want to unpack, I could not go back the usual. I just rested. My friend Barbara called to check on me. She encouraged me and as she began to encourage me another hurt surfaced. after the call I took that Hurt to God. My heart was no longer God make a way for me to get to the Philippines but now it was God if you come back tonight, I want to be ready. This flight I really didnt want to miss. I began to see that there was a link. The missed flights, and my heart condition were connected. I asked God to help me truly forgive those that had wronged me. I needed not to be guarded around them. I need not to sideeye them or even have thoughts of concern when they are around. I had to release it completely and fully. NOW God began to speak, He began to instruct me who I needed to have a conversation with and he showed me my heart being washed clean. The scripture: 

"Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God." Matthew 5:9

I knew that I needed to make peace with several individuals. From this point on, my main objective was to be right with God. I had made a mistake. I had let me get in the way of doing God's will. It did not surprise God but it had thrown me. One thing I knew the WHY God allowed was still not clear to me but I could not stay there. I had to move forward no matter how this turned out. This situation had me questioning everything the night before. On Thursday night I had been ready to walk away from it all.  Today I knew I was right where God wanted me to be. God was going to get the glory for this story.

Now, I started journaling about this on Wednsday night. I wrote about what had happened tuesday and wrote up til Wednesday night. to me athat would have been the end of the struggle and on thursday i would have been writing how God worked it all out and now I am on my way to the Philippines. that was not the case and to be honest I had not journaled the rest of this until Saturday night. But I am getting ahead of myself. as I journaled Wednesday night, god gave me what I thought was a Word to be delivered in the Philippines when I got there. It was about seeing God clearly, so you can understand what His plan for your life is about. 

I had told Evg. Rein this in a message and she and Eld. Steph said still deliver the word via Skype. Now they had said this on thursday evening but I was so messed up in my head and heart that I could not agree to do it. However, after having my heart cleansed, I went back and said I would do it.  I did not twll them that I was still trying to get there. One thing I knew for sure that if I got on a plane to te Philippines that they would be able to cover for me until I got there. I knew that God's will was goig to be done and I no longer wanted to manipulate or sabotage his plans any longer. So I rested In Him.

And the saga continues...



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Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To Be Learned! Part 6

So I finally got home. My sister gets ready for church and leaves the house. In my room, I fall on my knees and cry. I ask god what to do. remember I said 25% of me was still saying trust God. Now that 25% was crying out to the only one that could fix this. I needed to know what to do and why I could not let it go, even though, my head can't telling me to.  Still I heard nothing from God.  You know the saying "The heavens were quiet." yep they were quiet. Nothing.

After I cried a good cry and had a pity party. I needed to talk to someone that would tell it to me straight. My mind was going a mile a minute on how stupid I was and what people would say about me doing something so foolish. I didn't want to talk to anyone that would make me feel worse. So I called a friend I have known most of my life. I called her also because I knew her to be an on point prophet and would tell me what I did not want to hear if that is what God was saying.  When she picked up the phone, I told her what had happened and asked if God had impressed anything on her to tell me. 

She begins to speak and while you were talking nothing came to me. I heart sank. I wondered why god would not speak. I wanted him to say where I had missed it. Why this had happened. What the lesson was something. Then she began to pray and when she finished, she simply said, "Check the motives of my heart." I was quiet as I reflected on my motives. I started to explain to her why I was going on the trip. I also explained that the initial trip was not for me to go and to preach, I was going to support Rein. She said that was all God gave her and she could not add to it or take from it. After getting off the phone with her, I felt a little better but still pondered what she had said. 

I knew I was emotionally spent so I decided to go to bed. Now anyone that knows me, knows that I don't go to bed until about 2 or 3 in the am. So going to bed at 7pm was unheard of. I took two Advil PMs to help me sleep and clear up the headache I felt coming on from all the crying I had done. 

The next morning, when I wake up. I remember the words check my motives and I kneel by my bed and ask God to reveal any wrong motives I had. God started bringing to my attentions grievances I had with others that I felt did not respond to the situation in a way that I would have liked. even though they were small to me and I had felt justified, I knew that god was not pleased so I asked for his forgiveness. Later in the day I asked each individual God brought to mind for forgiveness. The day before I had said that I would pay back all the money that had been donated to get the ticket since I was not going to go. The lady that had given the money said that was not necessary. I was grateful, but I had to apologize for God for that too because that was me trying to play God. 

The people that had sown into me God is going to bless them and the money had been spent on what the money was given for. I did not use it for anything other than that. In trying to give the money back, I was trying to save face. I was trying to fix it which means I was not letting God be God. 

So after praying, I looked at my luggage and was going to unpack but I couldn't do it. So I went to my computer to start my work day. I found myself on a travel site looking up airfare to Manilla. I saw that there was a flight for 609.00 on China Air. So I called the site to see if the price was still available. the man that I spoke with told me that the price was available, but I would have to book my flight 180 days ahead of departure. He said he would look for flights leaving late Friday (today) or On Saturday and get back to me. I gave him my number and hung up the phone. 

About 2 hours later, he called me with information on a flight that would cost $939 and would leave on Saturday at 2:20 PM. He told me he could hold the price for up to four hours. I told him that I will have to come up with the money. I hung up the phone and got on my knees. I needed God to show me how to get the money. that 25% that was telling me to trust God would have to increase to 100% because now it would take a miracle. after I prayed I lay there prostrate before the Lord listening.  I wish I could say that God spoke, but I heard nothing. 

I got up from the floor and lay on my bed. The tears began to fall and my doubt flooded me. While I was on my way home with Jessica, I had told Kelsi and Rein to pray for me because Satan had started to torment my mind. I knew it was his plot and plan to use this to get me to doubt myself and God. To begin to slip into a depression that I had not been in for more than 30 years. Now once again I was feeling that hopeless coming on. I could once again hear the thoughts that plagued me as a teenager. They were flooding my mind and screaming at me. The difference between now and then was as a teenager, I didn't know that it was Satan feeding me the thoughts of suicide. Now I not only knew it was Satan but I was agreeing with him.

I started thinking about all the sacrifices I had made to be in ministry, the people who had talked about me, laughed at me, lied on me, how I had to fight for everything that came my way. I thought about the double standards I had to deal with, how nothing I wanted mattered and now in my lowest moment God will not even take a moment to speak to me. Is that love? I force myself to stay laying on my bed because honestly I did not know what I would do. I was not thinking rationally nor was I able or willing to hear from God. After about an hour of laying there crying I saw a vision of Calvary. I heard a whisper say, that's how much I love you. Tears began to fall again. I knew at the moment all I could do is trust God. He was my only hope. Then I fell asleep.

More to come....



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(CORRECTED REPOST) Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To Be Learned! Part 5

Sorry, I thought I had written this blog when it first posted but I realized that it posted along with May 8th post blank. So I am reposting. 

So needless to say I was confused. I did not know what to do and how to move forward. there was about 75% of me said,"It's over, this can't be fixed. You messed up." But there was 25% of me saying nothing is impossible for God. So my confusion was, "Do I trust God and wait for his instruction?" or "Do I give up?"

On the way back to Stockton, I just decided that I would not fight anymore. I would give up. I needed God to speak and he had said nothing. beside the little part of me saying trust Him, there was no assurance to trust. 

So, this is where things start getting real. Now as I write the events that will happen from this point forward, I am being transparent and taking you through my journey. I think many times people feel because we have a calling to preach, pastor, evangelist and do full-time ministry we can't have down days or make HUGE mistakes. That is the farthest thing from the truth. As long as we have flesh and free will we can make mistakes. What I learned in all this is how you bounce back from it.

So back to my testimony, I sent a message on FB to Rein and Kelsi and told them Since I was not being instructed how to move forward, that I was just going to give up and not try to get to the Philippines. I told myself that it was not meant to be. If it had been then I would have been on the plane. Even though God had confirmed His word several times to me through my own personal prayer and dreams, he had sent prophecies from others, and when we had prayer vigils regarding the Philippines no one ever said God said I was not suppose to go...it was obvious that I was not suppose to go. 

So now the torment started. I know now that this was demonic and it came to destroy not only my witness but whatever ministry god still has in me. I will explain more as we go. 

After I wrote the inbox message to them. I looked at my sister and she had a look of concern on her face. So I asked her. Now my little Sister Jessica, is also very prophetic and I know that God speaks to her. I knew that my emotions were up in the air and I had shut down spiritually. So I asked her what she thought, did god tell her anything. She said, "Linda, I saw god move on your behalf and do things that are unexplainable, not just concerning this trip but how he takes care of you. I can't believe when you think about how you got the money to go when you didn't have it, how you got the medicine and immunizations, even giving you money so you can get a pedicure. You can't tell me that God would do all this just to have you miss the flight by forgetting your passport. IF he is not telling you to stay then you should do whatever he is telling you to do. One thing I know for sure, God speaks to you and he speaks specifically. Maybe you emotions are in the way and you cant hear what God is saying but that does not mean he is not speaking. Don't just give up."

I thought about what she said. Then I heard what the man from China Southern said. So I picked up my phone to call them. On the recorded message, they said that they have flights from SFO on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday to Manilla but they had flights Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to Guangzhou. I knew that if I could get on a flight on Friday that I could possibly catch the last leg of the flight that left today from Guangzhou to Manilla. Although when the representative came on the phone, the information he gave me was different. He said that there was a flight on Saturday that would get me to Manilla on Monday morning. However, in order to get on that flight I would need to call Priceline because they were the ones that I got my ticket from. Later it will come up that I could have asked China Southern to let me go on standby on Saturday's flight and they may have done that with no further fees. But I digress.

So I called Priceline. Once on the phone with them. They looked into any flights going to Manilla. I asked for Friday or Saturday at the latest. She came back with a list of flights I could take but all of them were over thousand dollars and even with the price I had paid for the ticket I had, with the difference in airfare and all the fees I would still have to pay over thousand dollars to get on the flight. I just didn't have that kind of money. Seeing no way out and hearing Elder Smith's words, "I don't want to be where God has not ordained me to be." after going back and forth with Priceline. I canceled the flight and asked for a refund. I was told by Priceline that they could refund the money, but I would have to pay a 300.00 cancelation fee to China Southern. 

I tried not to break down in front of my sister. I was not sure if my sister was feeling bad or not but if she were I did not want my state of mind to add to it. I was confused and did not know what to think or do at this point. I can say I gave up and let faith go. 

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(CORRECTED REPOST) Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To be Learned! Part 4

Sorry, I thought I had written this blog when it first posted on May 8th but I realized on 9th that it posted along with today's post blank. So I am reposting 

So I was standing there. I felt like a fool and I wanted to cry, but there was something on the inside of me pushing me to hold on. I walked around until I found an outlet to plug my phone up, so it could charge. I had been trying to stay close to the ticketing counter so they would not have to look too hard for me and think that I had gone. Now I just wanted to sit quietly somewhere and see what would happen. So I found a plug where I could sit and I waited.

At this point either I would get on the plane or I would need a ride back home. My sister Jessica called me on Voxer, once my phone was turned back on and asked if I wanted her to stay where she was until we found out what would happen with the flight. I told her that was a good idea because I did not know how I would get to Stockton, should that be the case. 

I am not sure exactly when Kelsi got to the airport, but I don't think I had sat there more than 15 minutes. When she got there she was parked in front of the wrong airline so I told her which one I was at and told her I would meet her outside. I walked back to the ticketing counter because I wanted to see if anyone was still there and there was a chance that it was not too late to get on the plane. there were a few agents still there, but I could tell they were shutting down terminals and preparing to close shop. The Manager that had tried to help me was walking out the door so I knew the flight had either gone or was about to taxi down the runway. So I went to meet up with Kelsi.

I defeatedly loaded my things in Kelsi car and she drove me to where my sister was waiting for us. Before I got out of the car, Kelsi and I prayed. I heard nothing from God. I asked Kelsi if she got anything and she after a small hesitation said, "All I got was rest and God finishes what he starts." I was not sure what it meant, but I didn't want to process it at that moment nor did I want her to explain it more. 

I wanted to cry. Instead I got out the car, loaded up my sister's car and tried not to think. You see I am someone who will try to work things out and fix it. Now all I wanted to do was scream but I knew that would not help my situation. I kept thinking I don't do things like this and how did this happen not just once but twice.

I wanted to blame it on God, I wanted to blame it on my sister not driving faster or not leaving sooner. I wanted to blame myself for not checking when I got the unction to do so. I was angry. No one could have been more angry, disappointed or embarrassed than I was at the moment. I thought about all the money that had been spent on the tickets. I felt foolish. 

I did not know what to do, but there was a small feeling that said trust God.  I could feel faith draining like sand being pulled by the tide. Every way that God had made for me to go started coming to mind. Especially allowing me to get the ticket that I needed to chang my flight to Thursday. then I thought about how I had left my passport again. It was not the first time this was the second time. Who does that!!! Not me! Well at least up to this point I would have said not me. 

See what happens next.....



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What My Mommy Means to Me

There are many words I can say that would sum up what My Mommy means to me but at the end of the day, those words would pale in comparison to the feeling I get when I see my mom.

I am grateful that I have a mother that is a strong woman. I have seen her go through a bad divorce, loss of homes, cars, jobs and she is still a trooper. I have seen her be diagnosed with cancer and come through it never losing her faith in God. 

My mother is more than my mom, I consider her a friend and a confidante. When I have no one else I can turn to my mother is always there. Now my mother is not a touchy feely person but I know she loves me because I have seen her fight for me in times I thought she wouldn't

My mother and I have had some hard times, yelling matches, and I am sure there were times that she wished I would go away. However, in 2007 when God called me into full-time ministry and I walked off my job, she was there. She gave me a place to stay. Now I am not going to say that she understood because she didn't. She knew that I could get a job and many times said it. On the other hand, my mom has been my biggest supporter and fan. 

She has prayed for me since I was a child and even though she doesn't say it much she is proud of me and what she sees God doing in my life. 

My mother is MY mother and I would fight for her against the world if it required that. I have such great love in me for the mother that bore me into this world. I am who I am because of her. She taught me how to be a woman of God and to walk with my head held high. Not to give into what people think of me. 

So Happy Mother's Day Mom. I could say more and I am sure I will before I leave this world but for now, just know that your oldest child loves you and I will continue to cherish the time that I have with you. 

Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To Be Learned! Part 3

I could feel my doubt trying to flood in. My positivity had turned into faith and now it was slowly running out. To keep myself from thinking, I went back to the ticket counter. I asked the same lady if they could wait for my passport, it was on its way. She called over a supervisor. I explained to the supervisor my situation and that my passport was on its way. This supervisor called over someone who had more authority than she did. I explained to him what was going on and he said they could give me to 1:20 PM. I thanked her and looked at my watch it was 12:55PM. At this point, all I could do is wait. He then added, "Tell them to get here as quick as possible."

So I waited. At 1:05, I started pacing, I was getting really nervous. I kept telling myself, "Linda don't think." it became my mantra so I would not have negative thoughts. About 1:20PM, The same man came to me and said, "Do you have a picture of your passport?" I told him, "Yes." He said, "Come on then, we will check you in and hold your luggage until the passport comes." I wasn't sure what he meant, but I said thank you and followed him. As they were checking me in my phone battery started to die, so I got out my charger and gave them the cord. As they worked on checking me in, this man, who had the final say, told me that if my luggage could not get on the flight because it was too close to take off that they would put it on the next flight out which was Saturday. I prayed Lord delay the plane. Because I knew that I had another flight to Cagayan De Oro and since I was leaving on Thursday, I would not get to Manila until Saturday and that flight left Saturday afternoon. I would just make it for that flight with Rein and Stephanie.

I would not think about that now. I would cross that bridge later. Right now, God was working on my behalf and I would not give the enemy any room or a foothold. They checked me in and took my luggage. I got my phone back and asked where an outlet was to charge my phone. I said he would check in with me at 1:30.  As I was heading to sit down, I saw a white Lexus that looked like Kelsi car. I remember my heart beating so fast. however, the car pulled off and I realized it was not her. Before I could find an outlet near my phone died. 

At 1:30, he approached me again and said, How much longer, I told him I did not know because my phone had died. He pulled his cell phone out and asked for a number to call. The only number I knew was Jessica's so I gave him her numbers and she informed us that Kelsi had the passport ad had left headed to me about 5-10 minutes ago. So I told her to call Kelsi and get an estimate of time because they were wanting to know how much more time I needed. She said okay. I told her to call back on the number that I had called her on. He said we wait and returned to the ticket counter.

For the second time, I prayed Lord delay the plane until they get here and I can get to the boarding area. I stood there watching cars especially white cars coming and going. I stood there until I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was the man again. He had my luggage and a lady was with him. He asked had they come yet or were they close because no one had called him back. I just shook my head. He said, "I'm sorry I can't delay anymore." The lady tore up my boarding pass and removed the tags off my luggage. I shook his hand and thanked him for all his help.  He patted me on the shoulder and said there is another flight on Saturday. I wanted to cry but held my tears back.

Now my prayer changed. I prayed, "God hold up the airplane, let them have a delay and have him come looking for me letting me, so I can still board the plane." I willed Kelsi to drive up soon.

See what happens next...

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Philippines Chronicles: Lessons to Be Learned! Part 2

Finally, we are at SFO, I get my luggage and situate myself so I can maneuver my bags. I walk up to the ticketing counter, put my check-in bag on the scale and proudly announce, "I here to check in for my flight."

I open up my carry-on purse and pull out the famous purse pouch. I smile to myself becasue, see I did not forget it. I look and NO passport. I move the items around and NO passport. then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I left it in the copier in my home office. My heart sinks. I look once again, I can't believe I have done this again. trying to buy time I give the representative my Driver's license and pull out my cell phone. 

Okay, okay, I now you want to know how I left my passport in the copier. Well, the night before I was reading things online about traveling internationally alone ans some precautions one should take. Many of the sites said, make a copy of your passport and leave with family members in the states in case something happen. they also said I should have copies on my person to hand to hotels that require having your passport on file. This way you don't have to give them your original. So after reading that I went to make copies of my passport. However, after making the copies I never put my passport back in my pouch purse. 

So now I am on the phone wth my sister, Jessica, again. She is at work and I ask her to go to the house and get my passport out of the copier and drive it to a meeting place I will tell her so someone can meet her and bring the passport to me. I look at my watch while I am talking to her and see that it is 11:02 AM. The plane does not leave to 1:55 PM. So we have more than enough time to. She agrees to do and I ask what is the latest I can check in for the flight. They tell me 1PM.

My next phone call was to Mother Pryor, I could hear the disappointment in her voice when I told her what had happened. She called my name "Linda" like only a mother could do. She said she would pull off the freeway and wait for instructions where to meet Jessica because she had to get back to get her grandson by 2PM. 

I called my middle sister, Stephy to see if she was off work. Unfortunately, she was at work. My plan was to have Jessica drive to her and Have Stephy, who is a fast driver like myself bring the passport to me. But she was at work. I asked if they would let her leave ans she said it was just two of them in the Pharmacy and she would not be able to leave. 

Then I called Kelsi, a friend that lives in Richmond. I need to have a backup plan. I asked her if she had time to help in this situation. She was willing to do whatever was needed. She also suggested that I let Mother Pryor go so she could get back to ensure that she was there for Caleb. I told her it would be easier for us to Vox.  I hung up with Kelsi and called Mother Pryor back. I told her she could go that Jessica and Kelsi would make sure that I got my passport. Then I waited.

I looked at my watch it was about 11:20 now. I hadn't heard from Jessica about her leaving the house. Kelsi and I were trying to figure out the fastest route. We were going back and forth and Kelsi reached out to Rein. rein advised her that meeting up in Oakland would be best. So Kelsi told me to have Jessica meet her at Powell street in Emeryville. 

I called Jessi and asked where she was and did she have my passport. I was expecting her to say yes. but her answer was I am just leaving my job. I looked at my watch. I was like okay, as long as she gets there and leaves by 11:45 we should be good. Kelsi had told me from Emeryville it would take her 30 minutes if there was no traffic. So I knew it would take Jessica 45 minutes to an hour. 

I get a call from Jessica and I look at my phone it is about 11:50. She was looking in the wrong place for my passport. I explain that it was in the printer/copier. She said okay I got it. I then instructed her she needed to hurry because I needed to get the passport by 1PM.  I told her to call me when she was on the road so I could have an estimate of when she would be able to meet up with Kelsi. I mean she has my passport in hand nothing is stopping her from walking out the door right now. Right?

I go back to the ticketing counter and asked what is the absolute time I could check in. the lady I spoke to told me no later than 1:10PM. Whew, 10 more minutes. I breathe a little but from this point on NOTHING can go wrong. At about 11:59 Jessy calls and says she was on her way. I flash a bit but I hold my peace. For the first time, the thought crosses my mind she is not going to make it. I immediately push it out with an outspoken statement, she HAS to make it. Now I forcing myself to think positive. If God could part the Red Sea, surely he could get my passport here on time to me. I prayed that there would be no traffic or accidents and everything would flow well. NO delays. Then I looked at my watch and pleaded for God to slow time for me like he did for Joshua. I should have asked for God to STOP time, or make the Sun stand still which is what he actually did.

I called Jessi for a progress report and she was just approaching Tracy. Then I got a thought. I said I know that you are driving, but see if you can take a picture of the data page of my passport and text it to me. Be Safe but let me know if you can. NOW, I know someone is going to say, OH no you didn't put that girl's life in danger to do that for you. But sadly I did. I told you this was going to be the real and the raw. I am not going to leave stuff out because it makes me look bad or sound bad.  So yes, I did that. Now I know you can't text and drive safely, that whole thought process was wrong on so many levels. My only excuse was this girl was desperate and desperate times calls for desperate measures.

Needless to say a few minutes later my phone chimed with a text message and there it is. I look at it to make sure all the necessary information is on the pic. I blow it up and everything is there and it's readable. I got back to the ticket counter and asked the rep there if they can check me in with the pic of my passport. She looks and says no she needs to scan it. I walk away a bit defeated. I was hoping that they would have been able to do it. 

My thought process was...they would see that I had a passport. Check me in on the flight and get my luggage to the airplane. then I could continue to wait for for my passport and run to get on the flight once it got there. But this way I would not miss the check in time. My thought was that would give them more time to get there with the passport since the plane did not actually leave until 1:55 PM. So hearing that she needed my physical passport. I whispered a prayer as I walked back to sit and wait. I asked God to grant me favor. Let the plane have to be delayed allowing them enough time to get here with my passport. I checked in with Jessica again she was entering the Altamont. Now in her defense Jessica was making very good timing. But with a time restraint, I was praying that she would drive faster. I looked at my watch and it was about 12:35 now. For the second time, I thought she isn't going to make it. The drive from that point was still about 20-25 minutes. Once again, I prayed that there be no traffic to slow her down. But once she got to Kelsi, there was still 30 minutes before they would get it to me. I breathed deeply and thought, God let them make it.

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