Faith Testimony

I just wanted to share a faith story (testimony). Some may think that this is a strange story or maybe even unbelievable but listen to this and know that God gets all the glory. This testimony was written back in 2011. However, it is still true today and it's been 4 years now. So this is what I wrote back then... but I am still rejoicing about it today.

A few months ago... I was struggling financially and I wanted my situation to change. I had been in business for two years and I was only breaking even. Nothing of the abundance God had promised. It seemed like all my efforts were to no avail. Then I prayed in January...the Jabez prayer you know the enlarge my territory, increase me, no limits, you know the prayer. well I prayed and I felt God but things did not change.
February was more of the same. March came and I was desperate. I asked God to show me how to live in abundance. I wanted my finances to change. God started working on my unforgiveness. I want my finances to change, God started working on my commitment level to Him. I wanted my finances to change, God started asking for my devotion and started causing more ministry opportunities. My finances were still the same. Now dont get me wrong, I had the bare minimum, a house to live in, clothes on my back, shoes on my feet, a car to drive, and food to eat. Men were giving into my bosom but I wanted the good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over.

So in April, more of the same I prayed for more finances God worked on me inside and out. May came and now I am frustrated, "God I am praying more, fasting and reading Your Word. I am teaching more studies and doing all that You asked me to do. When will you enlarge my territory, when will you grow my business?" God started giving me coaching program ideas and started giving me vision for my company. I worte the vision and when I looked at it I still said " Huh? God but how is this going to come about with no money, or at least more than I have." God blessed me with a speaking engagement at a women's conference where he spoke to me directly. This woman I had never seen before told me exactly what my life was and will be. I breathed a sign of relief. However, things did not change actually they got worse.

Now we are in June, My Bishop preached a sermon on Faith. He kept saying what's in your hand?" So I went home that Sunday afternoon and asked God to show me what was in my hand. He began to show me all the potential that was in my reach and how to use it. The answer came so quickly I filled up two journal books with all the Lord was showing me and teaching me. I started to see there were tips, techniques and strategies in what the Lord had given me. I started working the plan, if you will, three weeks later my situation went from breaking even to overflow. I had made some authentic connections, my ministry starting flowing and my family, let just say total turn around. It seemed every area of my life was moving in the right direction and it was all coming together...Yes even my business. Today I am awaiting a settlement from 1989... not waiting for it to settle it has settled and the check is in the mail. (I got the check too)

Listen, God has truly blessed every area of my life and now what I thought was impossible is a reality for me. I hope this blesses you.

P.S. I know someone reading this will say, oh that's good for you or yeah talk to me in a year, but let me say this... Until you are ready to stop waiting on God to move on your behalf and are really ready to go to work and be obedient to god and his plan for your life you will not experience a total turn around. This time next year you will be the same but I will not. I have learned that God has plans for my life and I am willing to live the way He wants me to live. So, don't feel sorry for yourself...get with God and ask Him...What Do I have in my hand? He will show you if you don't know and not only will He show you like He showed me, He will instruct you how to use it. The Principles He uncovered in my life was not just for me. Know this, God is a good God and no respecter of persons. What He will do for me He will do for you. Trust and believe.

So now reading this, I realize that I am still in the overflow. I have a coaching business, a publishing House, two non-profits and have started walking in my destiny. Do things get tight? Yes, but reading this testimony, I am encouraged that the abundance is still coming and God gets the glory for this story and all the stories to come.  So my life has been changed and I can't go back!


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Pastor Linda Hillman 
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Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To Be Learned! Part 6

So I finally got home. My sister gets ready for church and leaves the house. In my room, I fall on my knees and cry. I ask god what to do. remember I said 25% of me was still saying trust God. Now that 25% was crying out to the only one that could fix this. I needed to know what to do and why I could not let it go, even though, my head can't telling me to.  Still I heard nothing from God.  You know the saying "The heavens were quiet." yep they were quiet. Nothing.

After I cried a good cry and had a pity party. I needed to talk to someone that would tell it to me straight. My mind was going a mile a minute on how stupid I was and what people would say about me doing something so foolish. I didn't want to talk to anyone that would make me feel worse. So I called a friend I have known most of my life. I called her also because I knew her to be an on point prophet and would tell me what I did not want to hear if that is what God was saying.  When she picked up the phone, I told her what had happened and asked if God had impressed anything on her to tell me. 

She begins to speak and while you were talking nothing came to me. I heart sank. I wondered why god would not speak. I wanted him to say where I had missed it. Why this had happened. What the lesson was something. Then she began to pray and when she finished, she simply said, "Check the motives of my heart." I was quiet as I reflected on my motives. I started to explain to her why I was going on the trip. I also explained that the initial trip was not for me to go and to preach, I was going to support Rein. She said that was all God gave her and she could not add to it or take from it. After getting off the phone with her, I felt a little better but still pondered what she had said. 

I knew I was emotionally spent so I decided to go to bed. Now anyone that knows me, knows that I don't go to bed until about 2 or 3 in the am. So going to bed at 7pm was unheard of. I took two Advil PMs to help me sleep and clear up the headache I felt coming on from all the crying I had done. 

The next morning, when I wake up. I remember the words check my motives and I kneel by my bed and ask God to reveal any wrong motives I had. God started bringing to my attentions grievances I had with others that I felt did not respond to the situation in a way that I would have liked. even though they were small to me and I had felt justified, I knew that god was not pleased so I asked for his forgiveness. Later in the day I asked each individual God brought to mind for forgiveness. The day before I had said that I would pay back all the money that had been donated to get the ticket since I was not going to go. The lady that had given the money said that was not necessary. I was grateful, but I had to apologize for God for that too because that was me trying to play God. 

The people that had sown into me God is going to bless them and the money had been spent on what the money was given for. I did not use it for anything other than that. In trying to give the money back, I was trying to save face. I was trying to fix it which means I was not letting God be God. 

So after praying, I looked at my luggage and was going to unpack but I couldn't do it. So I went to my computer to start my work day. I found myself on a travel site looking up airfare to Manilla. I saw that there was a flight for 609.00 on China Air. So I called the site to see if the price was still available. the man that I spoke with told me that the price was available, but I would have to book my flight 180 days ahead of departure. He said he would look for flights leaving late Friday (today) or On Saturday and get back to me. I gave him my number and hung up the phone. 

About 2 hours later, he called me with information on a flight that would cost $939 and would leave on Saturday at 2:20 PM. He told me he could hold the price for up to four hours. I told him that I will have to come up with the money. I hung up the phone and got on my knees. I needed God to show me how to get the money. that 25% that was telling me to trust God would have to increase to 100% because now it would take a miracle. after I prayed I lay there prostrate before the Lord listening.  I wish I could say that God spoke, but I heard nothing. 

I got up from the floor and lay on my bed. The tears began to fall and my doubt flooded me. While I was on my way home with Jessica, I had told Kelsi and Rein to pray for me because Satan had started to torment my mind. I knew it was his plot and plan to use this to get me to doubt myself and God. To begin to slip into a depression that I had not been in for more than 30 years. Now once again I was feeling that hopeless coming on. I could once again hear the thoughts that plagued me as a teenager. They were flooding my mind and screaming at me. The difference between now and then was as a teenager, I didn't know that it was Satan feeding me the thoughts of suicide. Now I not only knew it was Satan but I was agreeing with him.

I started thinking about all the sacrifices I had made to be in ministry, the people who had talked about me, laughed at me, lied on me, how I had to fight for everything that came my way. I thought about the double standards I had to deal with, how nothing I wanted mattered and now in my lowest moment God will not even take a moment to speak to me. Is that love? I force myself to stay laying on my bed because honestly I did not know what I would do. I was not thinking rationally nor was I able or willing to hear from God. After about an hour of laying there crying I saw a vision of Calvary. I heard a whisper say, that's how much I love you. Tears began to fall again. I knew at the moment all I could do is trust God. He was my only hope. Then I fell asleep.

More to come....



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Pastor Linda Hillman 
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Philippines Chronicles: Lessons To Be Learned! Part 3

I could feel my doubt trying to flood in. My positivity had turned into faith and now it was slowly running out. To keep myself from thinking, I went back to the ticket counter. I asked the same lady if they could wait for my passport, it was on its way. She called over a supervisor. I explained to the supervisor my situation and that my passport was on its way. This supervisor called over someone who had more authority than she did. I explained to him what was going on and he said they could give me to 1:20 PM. I thanked her and looked at my watch it was 12:55PM. At this point, all I could do is wait. He then added, "Tell them to get here as quick as possible."

So I waited. At 1:05, I started pacing, I was getting really nervous. I kept telling myself, "Linda don't think." it became my mantra so I would not have negative thoughts. About 1:20PM, The same man came to me and said, "Do you have a picture of your passport?" I told him, "Yes." He said, "Come on then, we will check you in and hold your luggage until the passport comes." I wasn't sure what he meant, but I said thank you and followed him. As they were checking me in my phone battery started to die, so I got out my charger and gave them the cord. As they worked on checking me in, this man, who had the final say, told me that if my luggage could not get on the flight because it was too close to take off that they would put it on the next flight out which was Saturday. I prayed Lord delay the plane. Because I knew that I had another flight to Cagayan De Oro and since I was leaving on Thursday, I would not get to Manila until Saturday and that flight left Saturday afternoon. I would just make it for that flight with Rein and Stephanie.

I would not think about that now. I would cross that bridge later. Right now, God was working on my behalf and I would not give the enemy any room or a foothold. They checked me in and took my luggage. I got my phone back and asked where an outlet was to charge my phone. I said he would check in with me at 1:30.  As I was heading to sit down, I saw a white Lexus that looked like Kelsi car. I remember my heart beating so fast. however, the car pulled off and I realized it was not her. Before I could find an outlet near my phone died. 

At 1:30, he approached me again and said, How much longer, I told him I did not know because my phone had died. He pulled his cell phone out and asked for a number to call. The only number I knew was Jessica's so I gave him her numbers and she informed us that Kelsi had the passport ad had left headed to me about 5-10 minutes ago. So I told her to call Kelsi and get an estimate of time because they were wanting to know how much more time I needed. She said okay. I told her to call back on the number that I had called her on. He said we wait and returned to the ticket counter.

For the second time, I prayed Lord delay the plane until they get here and I can get to the boarding area. I stood there watching cars especially white cars coming and going. I stood there until I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was the man again. He had my luggage and a lady was with him. He asked had they come yet or were they close because no one had called him back. I just shook my head. He said, "I'm sorry I can't delay anymore." The lady tore up my boarding pass and removed the tags off my luggage. I shook his hand and thanked him for all his help.  He patted me on the shoulder and said there is another flight on Saturday. I wanted to cry but held my tears back.

Now my prayer changed. I prayed, "God hold up the airplane, let them have a delay and have him come looking for me letting me, so I can still board the plane." I willed Kelsi to drive up soon.

See what happens next...

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Philippines Chronicles: Lessons to Be Learned! Part 2

Finally, we are at SFO, I get my luggage and situate myself so I can maneuver my bags. I walk up to the ticketing counter, put my check-in bag on the scale and proudly announce, "I here to check in for my flight."

I open up my carry-on purse and pull out the famous purse pouch. I smile to myself becasue, see I did not forget it. I look and NO passport. I move the items around and NO passport. then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I left it in the copier in my home office. My heart sinks. I look once again, I can't believe I have done this again. trying to buy time I give the representative my Driver's license and pull out my cell phone. 

Okay, okay, I now you want to know how I left my passport in the copier. Well, the night before I was reading things online about traveling internationally alone ans some precautions one should take. Many of the sites said, make a copy of your passport and leave with family members in the states in case something happen. they also said I should have copies on my person to hand to hotels that require having your passport on file. This way you don't have to give them your original. So after reading that I went to make copies of my passport. However, after making the copies I never put my passport back in my pouch purse. 

So now I am on the phone wth my sister, Jessica, again. She is at work and I ask her to go to the house and get my passport out of the copier and drive it to a meeting place I will tell her so someone can meet her and bring the passport to me. I look at my watch while I am talking to her and see that it is 11:02 AM. The plane does not leave to 1:55 PM. So we have more than enough time to. She agrees to do and I ask what is the latest I can check in for the flight. They tell me 1PM.

My next phone call was to Mother Pryor, I could hear the disappointment in her voice when I told her what had happened. She called my name "Linda" like only a mother could do. She said she would pull off the freeway and wait for instructions where to meet Jessica because she had to get back to get her grandson by 2PM. 

I called my middle sister, Stephy to see if she was off work. Unfortunately, she was at work. My plan was to have Jessica drive to her and Have Stephy, who is a fast driver like myself bring the passport to me. But she was at work. I asked if they would let her leave ans she said it was just two of them in the Pharmacy and she would not be able to leave. 

Then I called Kelsi, a friend that lives in Richmond. I need to have a backup plan. I asked her if she had time to help in this situation. She was willing to do whatever was needed. She also suggested that I let Mother Pryor go so she could get back to ensure that she was there for Caleb. I told her it would be easier for us to Vox.  I hung up with Kelsi and called Mother Pryor back. I told her she could go that Jessica and Kelsi would make sure that I got my passport. Then I waited.

I looked at my watch it was about 11:20 now. I hadn't heard from Jessica about her leaving the house. Kelsi and I were trying to figure out the fastest route. We were going back and forth and Kelsi reached out to Rein. rein advised her that meeting up in Oakland would be best. So Kelsi told me to have Jessica meet her at Powell street in Emeryville. 

I called Jessi and asked where she was and did she have my passport. I was expecting her to say yes. but her answer was I am just leaving my job. I looked at my watch. I was like okay, as long as she gets there and leaves by 11:45 we should be good. Kelsi had told me from Emeryville it would take her 30 minutes if there was no traffic. So I knew it would take Jessica 45 minutes to an hour. 

I get a call from Jessica and I look at my phone it is about 11:50. She was looking in the wrong place for my passport. I explain that it was in the printer/copier. She said okay I got it. I then instructed her she needed to hurry because I needed to get the passport by 1PM.  I told her to call me when she was on the road so I could have an estimate of when she would be able to meet up with Kelsi. I mean she has my passport in hand nothing is stopping her from walking out the door right now. Right?

I go back to the ticketing counter and asked what is the absolute time I could check in. the lady I spoke to told me no later than 1:10PM. Whew, 10 more minutes. I breathe a little but from this point on NOTHING can go wrong. At about 11:59 Jessy calls and says she was on her way. I flash a bit but I hold my peace. For the first time, the thought crosses my mind she is not going to make it. I immediately push it out with an outspoken statement, she HAS to make it. Now I forcing myself to think positive. If God could part the Red Sea, surely he could get my passport here on time to me. I prayed that there would be no traffic or accidents and everything would flow well. NO delays. Then I looked at my watch and pleaded for God to slow time for me like he did for Joshua. I should have asked for God to STOP time, or make the Sun stand still which is what he actually did.

I called Jessi for a progress report and she was just approaching Tracy. Then I got a thought. I said I know that you are driving, but see if you can take a picture of the data page of my passport and text it to me. Be Safe but let me know if you can. NOW, I know someone is going to say, OH no you didn't put that girl's life in danger to do that for you. But sadly I did. I told you this was going to be the real and the raw. I am not going to leave stuff out because it makes me look bad or sound bad.  So yes, I did that. Now I know you can't text and drive safely, that whole thought process was wrong on so many levels. My only excuse was this girl was desperate and desperate times calls for desperate measures.

Needless to say a few minutes later my phone chimed with a text message and there it is. I look at it to make sure all the necessary information is on the pic. I blow it up and everything is there and it's readable. I got back to the ticket counter and asked the rep there if they can check me in with the pic of my passport. She looks and says no she needs to scan it. I walk away a bit defeated. I was hoping that they would have been able to do it. 

My thought process was...they would see that I had a passport. Check me in on the flight and get my luggage to the airplane. then I could continue to wait for for my passport and run to get on the flight once it got there. But this way I would not miss the check in time. My thought was that would give them more time to get there with the passport since the plane did not actually leave until 1:55 PM. So hearing that she needed my physical passport. I whispered a prayer as I walked back to sit and wait. I asked God to grant me favor. Let the plane have to be delayed allowing them enough time to get here with my passport. I checked in with Jessica again she was entering the Altamont. Now in her defense Jessica was making very good timing. But with a time restraint, I was praying that she would drive faster. I looked at my watch and it was about 12:35 now. For the second time, I thought she isn't going to make it. The drive from that point was still about 20-25 minutes. Once again, I prayed that there be no traffic to slow her down. But once she got to Kelsi, there was still 30 minutes before they would get it to me. I breathed deeply and thought, God let them make it.

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Philippines Chronicles: When God Speaks! Part 5

So I am now back at my home. I'm defeated and embarrassed. I leave my luggage in the car because I don't even want to think about I was supposed to be on a plane flying over the Pacific Ocean right now. 

I went into my room and gave myself 15 minutes to wallow in this depression that was creeping over over. I cried, I screamed and I said every thing I could say to get my anger out. I was so frustrated, I got a pillow and punched until my arms hurt. then when the 15 minutes, well maybe a total of 30 minutes, was over. I washed my face. 

I went to my desktop and at down to begin making plans to get on the Thursday flight. I called China Southern first. I was hoping they would have better news than the ticketing agent had at SFO. However, they did the same told me to call Priceline. I went to their website, to confirm that there was a flight on Thursday. Then I called Priceline.

I told the Representative what happened and they conformed that there was a flight on Thursday on China Southern identical to the flight I would have been on today. Which means I would leave at 1:55 PM on Thursday April 23rd. For the first time since realizing I left my purse I smiled. There was a ray of hope. then the man I was speaking with told me to get on the flight I would have to pay 200.00 change fee to China Southern, $30.00 fee to Priceline to make the change and the difference between the price of the ticket I had paid for and the new ticket.  The total was $463.30. I thanked the ticket agent. Told him I would call back.

I checked my accounts to see if I had the money to pay and all I had was $300. I was short $163.00. So I said to myself, "God this is when you step in."What do I do now? Help Lord!"

Now the ticket agent told me that he could not secure the price and if I called back later the price could be different. It could go up or down. At this point I was not phase by that becasue I didnt even have the amount he was asking for. I had to wait on God. I asked a few friends that knew what was going on, to pray for God's intervention. 

I can admit my faults, and at this point I felt doubtful. I even began to questioned if I was really suppose to God. I had questioned it on the drive back to Stockton and God had rebuked me strongly. He forced me to remember what He had done up to this point. However, here was another impossible situation and why does it always have to be hard for me? Why do I always have to fight for my blessings? Why cant things just go as planned for me?

I knew that Stephanie might not know so I got on FB and sent her an inbox ato inform her what was going on and bought her up to speed with the latest news. then I said, "Help Lord!"

I wanted to post something on FB and ask the people of God to pray like they had prayed before, this would be waht I would normally do. this time however, something said no. I could hear Stephanie saying not everyone is supporting you that says they are. You cant tell everybody everything. The One thing I knew was I wanted God to work this out and I did not want anyone to hinder or speak negatively. So I did not post anything.  I didn't even call my mom to tell her that I missed my flight. I would wait on God to speak and move on my behalf. I did not want to manipulate the situation at all. So I vowed to myself that I would not tell anyone else at this point until God fixed it. 

Keep reading, tomorrow more will be revealed. 



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