OH WOW, I almost forgot. Before I went to sleep that Sunday morning, I scheduled a post for later that morning. It was a post of my thoughts and I told people about my blogs. Yes, the blogs that I am writing now. The blogs I have written and the ones to come. Well, one more after this one. I knew I had to tell my truth, the whole truth and nothing but. I was thankful that I journaled, so I had an accurate account of what happened, as it happened. I knew I would share everything. I just did not know how. As I was strolling on FB looking at posts and catching up, I came across a post from one of my friends. It was a post on Stephanie D. Mckenzie's timeline.
"Don't worry about what didn't go right. Just know that you haven't been left. You are not alone, and no matter how thigs look like this very moment, you ar destined for something greater. One moment WILL change your life!"
It was not my AHA moment, but t was the beginning of the lesson I would learn from all of this. My AHA moment was still to come. At this point, I can't say that I knew the lesson I was supposed to learn from this or even if there was a lesson for me to glean from. I knew I ws the only one that could endure this and endure I must. this post gave me something to think about.
I looked at the globe that I have on my desk and remembered all the places that God said I would travel to share the Gospel. I began to intercede for each country that came to mind. I began to proclaim deliverance and restoration over the regions. I claimed salvation for those in need, I prayed for covering for the Christians being persecuted for their faith. I prayed that God would do everything he Promised in the Phillippines crusade.
I prayed until I could not think of anything else to say. Again I repented for my failure to be prepared for Kingdom business and told God you give me another chance that I would not let him down again. There was such a peace that entered my home. For the first time in six days, I knew that I would be okay. That it all would work together. I accepted my situation and the shame of it all subsided. When it was time to share my testimony, I knew that I would be able to do it with my head held high.
In tomorrow's blog, I will share what the Lord taught me through this. I must admit that he is still speaking to me about this experience so I am sure there will be more but for now...tomorrow will be the last post regarding my Chronicles of the Phillippines.
The Conclusion (FINALE) will happen tomorrow. See you then.
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Pastor Linda Hillman
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So a few weeks ago, I said that I would finish my chronicles. I must admit this hasn't been as hard as I originally thought it would be. However, I am still learning from this and I pray that in all this that you have been able to see the redemption, healing and restoration that has occurred and is occurring.
It is my hope that these last few entries will bless you as much as they have blessed me.
So the story continues.
Now a short recap, I was was waiting for the AHA moment. That moment that would give me the clarity I was seeking. In the meanwhile, I was waiting to hear from Evangelist Rein about preaching via Skype.
So I get back on my computer about 12 AM. To my surprise, there is an inbox from Rein. I was scheduled to preach at the 6 PM service on Sunday. So I started trying to figure out the time difference. The Phillippines is 15 hours ahead of California. So 6 PM their time would be about 3 AM my time. So I had 3 hours to get myself together. I went to my sermons folder and opened up the file that I had typed for the Word God had given me to share. It was still in notes form because I had figured on the plane I would be able to polish it up and set it up in some kind of format. Now there was no time for that. I read through the notes and then prayed for the delivery of His message to His people. As I prayed, God switched the message from what I was meditating on to a totally different sermon. He impressed on me to preach from Mark 8th chapter about the blind man who was brought to Jesus to be healed and to continue on to the story of Peter confessing that Jesus was the son of God. I read through the verses quickly and asked God what He wanted to say to His people.
Praying and Meditating on the verses, God began to speak so clearly to me. I jotted a few notes, but I must admit, I got a bit unnerved because I felt ill prepared. I knew that God would pull it together. However, I was still a bit panicked.
I continued to pray and ask God presence to go before me and touch the hearts and minds of the people that would be gathered. I asked him to knit me together with them even though we were thousands of miles apart. I anointed myself with oil, my eyes, my mouth and my ears. I asked God to move me out of the way and to use me as a vessel of honor.
At 3 AM my time, I logged into my Skype account and waited for them to connect with me. I sent a message to rein so she would know that I was ready on my end.
Stay tuned, there's more!
You are Bound No More.
Pastor Linda Hillman
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In The Meantime
As I rested, the thought occurred to me...there was no AHA moment! Normally when God teaches me a lesson about me. I get an AHA moment. An AHA moment that elevates me. that causes me to be delivered from the bondage that held me captive. But this lesson did not come with an AHA moment. It was a lesson for sure but now, I knew there was more to come.
Remember I said when I got to the airport the second time I immediately knew where my passport was. Well when things like this occur in my life, I immediately know what the root cause was that opened the door to it. What I had just experienced was the symptom, but not the root. I was clear on that. it would seem my insecurities were a root cause, but they were just the tip of the iceberg. I knew this was just the calm before the storm.
So then I asked God, what was I missing, had I missed His instructions. I started thinking about all the prayers that had been prayed from the time I was asked to go to the Philippines to now. Was there ever a "NO". Again when I ask questioned like this to God...He answers and I immediately know where, when and how. He may not tell me Why but I have the answer that I need. Nothing surfaced here. During this time, I had been in the presence of some BONAFIDE prophets and Prophetess. With all the prophetic people in my life including myself, no one said, "Linda god said no" however, there were words about what I would do while in the Philippines, about healing that would occur in my body as God used me to heal others, so where was the AHA moment? Nothing!
I asked more directly, "God where did I miss a step or where did you speak and I misinterpreted it or overrode it with my own agenda like I did when I got the unction to check for my passport? Even as I wrote in my journal about these events at the time nothing was becoming clear. No AHA moment.
Needless to say at 11AM, when Nick called again. He informs me that the ticket price has gone down a few dollars, it is now $928. He believed he could get it even cheaper. I told him I did not have that much, so he asked how much I did have. I told him I could get on my own about $300. Then Nick said something very interesting. He said if I can get you on standby on this flight, can you get at least $400. I told him that might be possible, but the flight leaves at 2:20 PM and I leave 1 1/2 away from SFO. He said we also fly out of Sacramento and there is a flight leaving Sac 9:55 PM. He also told me that the flight was not full so he might be able to get me on the flight. He would call me back after talking with his supervisor and the airline to let me know. I said okay. We hung up. I looked at my packed bags and my passport sticking out of my pouch. I thought to myself well at least this time I won't forget my passport.
A few hours later, I message Kelsi and Rein and tell them about the ticket and jokingly say, if I had the money, I would be on that flight to Manila right now. I chuckle to myself and I feel my eyes tearing up. I had made up my mind to give up. This was my way of letting go. So I decided to get back to working on my projects. I started going through emails and setting new deadlines. As I worked tears starting falling down my face. However, still no AHA moment.
I work on some projects some I have completed. I decide to get up get something to eat and I guess I should tell you. I have still been taking my Malaria pills because up to this point I had been still trying to go to the Philippines. But now after I eat. I decide not to take the pills any longer. I looked at the clock and it was about 2PM now. I sighed because I knew another flight headed to the Philippines would be taking off without me. Now three percent of me was hoping Nick was able to get me on the flight out of Sacramento but 97% was resigned to stay home.
Since agreeing to Preach via Skype, I was waiting on Rein to give me the instruction on time and when. Based on the schedule that we had set prior to going to the Philippines I was to preach first but I knew they had to work some things out with the internet so I thought I would preach last or something. I knew it was approaching Sunday and since I hadn't heard I decided to catch up on some TV shows that I had recorded. Still not hearing anything from Rein, I began to think maybe they did not get it worked out. I turned off my computer and turned off my so I could put it on the charger. I continued watching my recorded programs and dosed off.
Oh, there's more!!!!!! I will continue this in a few weeks..... Consider this the season finale... See you back with more in a few weeks... I promise you will hear all of it.
You are Bound No More.
Pastor Linda Hillman
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Booklindahillman@gmail.com
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In The Meantime
